I just want to say thank you to people who commented on yesterday's post.
Thank you for your sensitive comments.
It was a big decision to share that letter, and I don't know why but I felt such relief when I clicked the "publish post" button. I had written the letters (there are lots of them) on bits of paper, as a way of expressing my feelings of overwhelming grief at the time. Then later, I wrote them into a notebook, and now have begun to put some of them online.
But then you start to think "what if they think I'm mad, writing letters to a dead person?" And then publishing them 21 years later?
But this is the wonderful thing about blogging, that you can connect with people who connect with you. And I've realised that for all of us, however long ago and whatever age we were when we lost our mother, it is a huge loss. Our mother is the only person on this earth who we've been physically bonded to and depended on for our survival.
I really do appreciate your sensitivity and your friendship.Thanks again.